I really enjoyed your writing, and I understand your feelings. I wen't through a lot of the same things. Thank you for your post.
Nancy Drake
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Why this forum was important to me....my story (Loooong post!)
by never too late to be myseld inbecause it made me think and face what i tried to push back.
i was born in the truth.
somehow i decided i would be a nice little jw and f*ck the rest.
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A Poem. By me, Nancy Drake.
by Nancy Drake in"you love them more than me" by nancy drake.
parental-induced heart malady.. .
that is how this feels.. when you tell me im not good enough.
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Nancy Drake
"You Love Them More Than Me" by Nancy Drake.
Parental-induced Heart Malady.
That is how this feels.
When you tell me I’m not good enough.
I used to be.
But now I’m not in your group
And I never will be.
I wanted to be right there with you.
Not because I believed.
But I loved you and needed you.
And I was an imposter
Because it tortured me to hurt you
But
Never again will I represent
The very group that says
It’s not okay to see your kid.
Above all the other bullshit that this nonsensical group says,
It’s not okay to see your kid
Because she made a stupid mistake?
That is where I draw this line.
So tell me…
Tell me something real.
No, I don’t want to hear
about how many people you got to join your damn group.
Or what a great speaker you are.
Or what a great actor you are (drama, drama)
Or how upbuilding it is to be with your brothers and your sisters
Who didn’t have the same mom or dad as you.
They only love you
Because there is no one else to love.
Help me understand,
Is it really so great,
That it’s worth this pain?
You say I’m still your daughter.
Please, don’t bother.
Don’t justify your choice.
I don’t want you to feel better.
Please
Just take some goddamn responsibility.
I didn’t choose to be without you.
Your group chose this for you.
You allowed yourselves to be caught up,
And lose something precious.
It’s your turn now…
Without the programmed response, please.
How did it feel?
To have a baby,
To raise her,
To watch her grow.
To get accustomed to her face
Her personality
To love her
(It seemed sincere. Was it?)
And then with her one false step…
Make her life altering decision
Without a second thought.
You didn’t lose her.
You pushed her out of your life.
So
Don’t proselytize your feelings.
Just tell me how your heart felt.
Like someone ripped it
From your chest
And put it on shelf
And then asked you about the weather
That’s how it feels,
When I realize you just love them
More than me.
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Howdy!
by Nancy Drake inhi everyone, it's me, nancy drake.
i was gone, but now i'm back.
i didn't have many jw issues for a while, just child issues mostly.
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Nancy Drake
Blondie, I work nights, so it's hard for me to get off. But I have 3 vacations and 2 personal days to take this year still...If they ever let me take them!!! People always whine if I'm gone for more than a day. Jerks!
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Howdy!
by Nancy Drake inhi everyone, it's me, nancy drake.
i was gone, but now i'm back.
i didn't have many jw issues for a while, just child issues mostly.
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Nancy Drake
Yes, AlmostAthiest...I finally found the third hidden camera you installed in my bedroom and removed it. I never would have guessed it was inside my Hello Kitty Build-A-Bear.
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Howdy!
by Nancy Drake inhi everyone, it's me, nancy drake.
i was gone, but now i'm back.
i didn't have many jw issues for a while, just child issues mostly.
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Nancy Drake
Nice to see you all again and nice to meet the new ones! Haha Mumsy I love your new avatar! Brooke, I've already laughed the pee out of me reading some of the stuff on here about you. And oh....the pictures!!!
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Howdy!
by Nancy Drake inhi everyone, it's me, nancy drake.
i was gone, but now i'm back.
i didn't have many jw issues for a while, just child issues mostly.
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Hi everyone, it's me, Nancy Drake. I was gone, but now I'm back. So Hi. I didn't have many JW issues for a while, just child issues mostly. So lately I've been hangin out mostly on myspace. If anyone wants to visit me, its myspace.com/nancydrake. I've missed a lot of people here. Especially YOU Brooke!
I've got back in contact with an old JW friend who is out now and lives near me in Milwaukee. She is going through some issues of her own, and I'm going to invite her to this site because you guys are so great. So I guess I better start showing my face around here again, too.
Love, Nancy
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My son the Ringbearer
by Nancy Drake inmy son was in his aunt's wedding this weekend.. .
he took his "job" very seriously!.
here he is with his cousins, the flower girls.. .
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Nancy Drake
My son was in his aunt's wedding this weekend.
He took his "job" very seriously!
Here he is with his cousins, the flower girls.
Haven't been around for awhile...miss you guys. Hi to everyone!
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Cook at home or eat out?
by greendawn indo you know how to cook, even just a few simple recipes, or do you hate the idea of home cooking and prefer to always rely on restaurants and take aways, or just prepare easy snacks like sandwiches and melted cheese on toast?
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Nancy Drake
We like to eat out once in a while....
...but it's just not as good without that LOVE ingredient.
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My Story.................
by whyamihere inmy whole mothers side of the family made us think like that as well.
everyone knew who my family was!
i knew he was the once since i was 9 years old.
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Nancy Drake
Jesus, there are a lot of people who love you, Brooke!
Including ME!!!!!
P.S. Sorry again about my dad giving that talk. What a tool.
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What is your greatest fear?
by Podiatrist injust wondering, my experience tells me that many jw live in constant state of watchfulness, bordering with paranoia.
did any of that have an effect on you?
like last week ive had a pleasure of browsing new childrens book great teacher or something (well it was new to me anyway) i was mightily surprised on the number of references to satan or devil.
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Nancy Drake
My greates fear is being physically tortured. I mean, just kill me already.